One very good thing about asking you to give me question for the giveaway (join now if you haven’t! Ha!) is now I have HEAPS of things to talk about, ha!
Shirley the toothfairy: When will you finally tell him alright?
Nikolett: Aw, toothfairy took my question haha :)
January 4, 2010 at 19.19 (a.k.a 7.19 PM) That answered the question.
But because Andhari and Nikolett demanded the more detailed story (as I hope the others will be interested to know too) – and I actually kind of want to share the story, so here it goes.
wait, before anything, I just have to warn you that this is a long fluffy post.
Okay girlies, this has got to be one of the biggest thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. I finally told him yesterday and it was quite fun – I might as well addicted to it, lol.
I fully know that I am an uber forgetful girl, so for this kind of occasion, one that I don’t really want to forget, I decided to taped/recorded it. I’ve been listening to our almost-two-hours recorded conversation multiple times now – and it still makes me feel all fluttery and giddy, I can say that I honestly still blush too.
So we met, I told him I need his help for an interview, and apparently he – just like me – loves question, I bet he feels like a celeb too when he’s being interviewed, lol.
We talked about love and his vision about it, about friendship turns into love and all, do you really want me to tell you the whole four hours conversation? No, right? (yes, the recorded one is two hours, but entirely, including some random subjects, we were talking for four hours or so)
Skip that part, So to give you a little more detailed description, we were in a gazebo, second storey (yes, the gazebo has two storey!) laying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, head to head, with the recorder in between. Alright, I just have to draw it, right? Use your imagination.
So when I felt the time is almost right, I asked him… Oh, and honestly, I waited until the clock strikes 19.19, lol.
Some parts here, I think in no particular order :D
Me: So I’ve been single all these while because I’m stuck, in love with only one person who is actually my friend, what should I do?
Him: Tell him then! Or else you’ll be curious all the time and stuck forever if you can’t find a better guy.
Me: Tell him? So what if I like you?
Him: Then tell me!
Me: Okay, I like you
Me: What now?
Me: See, I’m stuck with this guy because I’m curious about him! (yes, I’m repeating the explanation here)
Him: Yep, and he’s your friend…
Him: Just tell him! Geez!
Me: Then what?
Him: Then see his reaction! You can’t know what he feels if you don’t tell him.
Me: Well I like you
Him: You who? Me?
Him & Me: Hahaha… (awkward laughter)
Him: What to do now?
Me: I don’t know…
Him: Hmm… Well, I have a girlfriend
Me: I know, well actually you always do
Him: Yeah, so…
Me: Well I got it… but I just need to let you know, now it feels alright.
Him: But hey, you have to remember we still have time to answer.
Me: Oh come on! Don't make me confused! Yes or No!
Him: That's not me to decide! I may have a plan but there'll be a process, and during that time there'll be occasions, things will happen and there's fate only time can show the answer.
Him: Are you sad?
Me: No! I mean, well no! I’m not… but there’s a feeling… *blabbering here – the point is I was happy that I’ve succeeded telling him, but in a long blabbering way.
Him: But hey, never, ever think that after you tell me your feeling like this we're not friends anymore, okay?
Me: Ah! That’s actually one thing that kept me not telling you, I can’t bear losing a friend like you, I mean, losing you is such a loss, right?
Him: Of course! (after listening it multiple times I just realized how obnoxious this sentence is, lol)
Me: So have you ever liked me?
Him: Well… I don’t know, it’s all ordinary…
Me: Awww, come on! You should at least amuse me a little! Make me happy, you just broke my heart!
Him: *rolls eyes* Aaalriight… well, I like it when we have a conversation or just hanging out randomly
Me: Aren’t you surprised?
Him: Me? Not really?
Me: (o.o!) How so?
Him: Well, I can feel it you know, but I’m unsure of it, and that’d be ridiculous to ask you if you like me.
Him: You’re great, you know?
Him: That you finally said it, I’ve been waiting for the time you finally do it
Me: What the hell, you’ve known it all along?
Him: Well I do…
Me: *smack his head* geez
Him: Now you’re not curious anymore, right?
Me: Yea :)
At the end of our meeting I gave him the drawing, Although he couldn’t quite understand it, luckily I was still there.
Him: What’s with a tree?
Me: Actually the main point isn’t the tree
Him: Then what? *staring at the picture a long time*
Me: The fireflies
Him: What fireflies?
Me: Those yellow things are fireflies!
Him: Ooh!! I thought they were dry leaves falling from the trees!!!
He asked me to write something at the back of the drawing (and sign it, just in case I’m becoming a super famous painter later, he’ll have the honor to get it now), so I wrote… I actually don’t really remember but it’s something along this line:
Well, what I actually meant was that even if it might be temporary, this feelings I have for him does exist and is pleasing and enjoyable.
Later that night he sent me a text message:
Honestly I don’t know what he thinks of the picture, but that was one nice line from him, rarely happened I have to say, lol.
it feels almost like we were talking in codes.
This must be one of the loooooongest post I’ve ever posted.