Life Lately

I'm still aliveeeee! Hehe... Just have to say it, I mean like.. ehehe... Sorry I kinda disappeared but.. eh, you know... life happens and I just kinda leave my laptop in the office (everyday) so I couldn't update but other than that yeah... I was just... lazy.. :p

Anyway, I'm back now! Kkkk~ this is like the 1972836463 times I am back lol... sooooo uh.. what's up? Hehe.. anyone miss me? :3 no? uhm... okay.. lol...

SO I've moved to (back) to Yogyakarta, which is practically my hometown and got a pretty cute nice job here. I mean, so far, it's not as boring as what I did before, lol. And I love that I got to connect to people more, I get to meet more people too. So I guess, drawing as a job isn't really for me. I mean, I love doing it as a hobby but I don't want to do it as an obligation, it makes drawing feel more boring and losing the fun part.

Now about my life here, I've surprisingly started drawing even more now that it is not my job (lol). I use it as an escape, so I'm not doing the same thing all the time :3 you get what I mean?

Life's been good, I enjoy my job, I love my free time, I made new friends, so yeah~ life's good!

And guess who's coming to Korea again this Halloween? Yay! LOL. This time I'll go there with my mom and brother! LOL xD seriously, though... I just thought this year I don't want to explore alone, so I contacted my list of friends and ask them but eeeh... I guess it's just too sudden (yeah, I love doing spontaneous stuff soo..) and then I remembered my brother and he agreed, and I told my mom asking for permission and she was like "I wanna join too!" lol... so there we go..

I've been looking for a decent place to stay and try to make a decent itinerary (since I never had one). LOL, this is kinda new, I imagine things will be quite hectic since mommy is included but I guess it'll be more fun, too! xD

Marching On

March is my birth month, and it has proven itself to be mine to march on. After everything and all the drama (that hasn't quite ended yet, but no worry, nothing is too dramatic anyway). 

So I've finally gotten (two!) job offers, and I have yet to make a decision. Both companies are really different, and I still have to do some more interviews, while I've been accepted in the other company. Another huge difference is that one locates in my hometown, while another is in Jakarta, the huge huge city. Also, one is a small start-up company while the other is a big fast moving customer goods company.

The next interview in the big(ger) will be held next week, and I am honestly unsure of what I want. The possibility of working in this huge company in a huge city where it's hard to commute anywhere because, let's face it, Jakarta is the no.1 city with worst traffic jam in the world. Scary enough? 

While Yogyakarta, my hometown, despite being not-so-huge, is a totally homey place (like of course, it's my hometown anyway. You know, it has this traditional flavor, but still steadily following the trend and  whatever is popular right now. In fact, it has gotten more crowded the last few years (but of course, nothing compares to Jakarta).

Anyway, let's just cross fingers for the best, since the future is always so unsure I've decided to take one step at a time and enjoy everything in the progress, the point is, I am finally free from my current (soon-to-be previous) company. Hoho! I still have to gather up my courage to give the resignation letter (today!), to my manager, though. I've talked about it to my supervisor and now is the time for the manager.

In another note, my birthday is coming in FOUR days, gosh! I'm really getting old! And I will celebrate my birthday in the paradise island! Yes yes, Bali here I come! YAY! Apparently, I take marching on kinda literally this year. Let's go!

March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life's path.-Khalil Gibran

To Enjoy my Time

I've ranted enough about how I feel pretty uncomfortable with my job and being in my office all day. So here's what I do to somehow aid the boredom... yes, of course, drawing~

I've been in love with drawing some big haired girls, I just love making the swirly hair, honestly. Hehe... And I've been thinking of what I could make out of these pictures. Maybe print it and make some cushion cover or something.

made it on my post-it note. Hehe..

not sure if I like it better with colors, what do you think?

Also, I've been in love with watercolor. Been doodling and everything using watercolor. You can say I've done some experiment. Sadly, I can't do this in my office. Anyway, did it on my free time on the weekends or after office hours is over. Sometimes I'm too tired to even think but some other time I'm feeling pretty much inspired. So yeah~

Uhm, excuse my ugly handwriting, and messy typography. It's just that I love writing motivational message, it seems. I haven't tried to create something more like a painting, I've just been doodling here and there, um~

to plan a trip

Hello, dear lovelies!

Well, I've decided that instead of feeling blue, I will simply try my darndest to find a new fun job and keep being happy with land what little friends I have around me (including you, of course!). Well, sad to say that I haven't gotten a new, happier place to work, but at least I'm coping quite well. Not that I'm getting myself used to the uncomfortable place, rather, I channel my energy to focus on more positive things to pass the day, at least this way my days pass rather happily.

Also, to take a breath (and skip working, lol) once in a while when I feel like everything's too stuffy. Hehe~ not sure if it's a good thing to do but so far so good and I've done my job quite well so nobody complaints so yeah.

Anyway, I read somewhere yesterday on how to make yourself happier. Other than the famous "being thankful" and "smile to strangers" there is a quite new point, that is "to plan a trip". Why yes, that's exactly what's been making me happier these days, haha...

I've been lusting to go on a trip again, like gosh seriously, it's time to go out and about again! I need to jump in water and breathe fresh air and play in the sand and do some serious shopping spree and meet new people and eat delicious random food and have a random conversation and make new friends, alright?

So what I've been doing is seriously staring at my computer looking for the cheapest way possible to go to Thailand, because... I don't know, this year, it's time for Thailand (and maybe Japan)! And instead of the flashy Bangkok, I'm thinking of a more quiet Krabi, with all them beaches and yummy seafood... yeah yeah, sounds pretty nice, right? Now if only I can find the best price to go there. Well, it isn't really super-duper-expensive-I-can't-afford-it, it's just that I've seen my friends bought a far cheaper tickets so I'm kinda curious (and challenged) to find it too, lol.

See, something as simple as planning a trip is making me far happier than my last post, right? ;)

oh, my not so gliterry new year post

2015 started off quietly, and kind of nicely. But who am I kidding, only 5 days into the new year and I've already had a headache and this so-confused-and-tired-I-just-feel-like-breakdown-and-cry moment. I am sorry to post such a depressing blog post in a beginning of a new year where everything is supposed to be bright and cherry and filled with new hopes. But I guess maybe I'll just start this year with sorrowful and confused blog post, find a way to deal with it and leave everything behind, and fill the rest of the year with good things.

So what gives this depressing blog post? Uh, so here goes... something I've kept to myself (in the blogsphere, at least), I've been feeling uncomfortable in my work space, and have been looking for a new one so I can resign as soon as I can but have yet to get any call, which makes everything even more depressing. It feels like I'm losing a part of myself on daily basis, and that is not a good thing.

I would write a long rant about how I don't feel like growing here, or how I don't feel like anything, or that I simply dislike my boss(?) *he's not even my boss* but that would only bring more negativity... I mean, the fact that my other team-mates are already resigning speaks a lot, right?

I wonder if I should just go crazy and resign for the hell of it and be a jobless person and try to do business or something but of course I don't have the guts to do so (or do I?) because life isn't about sunshine and rainbows and unicorns but I sure do hope so.

Krissy wrote something about a dog sitting on a nail, kept sitting on it because it doesn't hurt enough yet. I remember this particular post clearly because I can totally relate to it, and I kept thinking about it, because it feels like I'm that dog right now and am whining and crying because I'm sitting on a nail. So why am I not moving away? Could it be because I am afraid I wouldn't get another seat? Or because I'm afraid of getting yet another painful nail to sit on? Or worse, have I became used to the pain? Why do I keep hurting myself?

Honestly, as I am writing this, I feel like crawling under my table and just cry because everything is so confusing and tiring, and I still can't find a way out yet. I don't know what do, not sure what I can do to make everything better, I'm just so.. lost.

Once again I'm really sorry to start the new year with a confused blog post, hopefully things will get better and brighter and I will find the answer I need soon.