Dec 30, 2013

it's a wrap!

I can't believe, well... I can, but I find it hard to believe that here we are in the last day of 2013 already. Am I ready for 2014? I'm not sure if I do, but I have to so yeah! I'm ready, bring it on! And here's  what a typical year-end blog post gonna be like; reminiscence, and a bucketful of wish. 

Let's see... this year I have...

1. Graduated from my master degree.
It's hard to believe that I actually wrote both of my graduations in one blog. This blog is almost 5 year old! It witnessed everything I've gone through, including the tiring thesis-making and nerve-wrecking thesis defense. To think that I've survived those, I think I should give myself a pat on the back.

2. Still fighting for the perfect job.

I have failed so many times in a job seeking process, it's a good thing I have taken a little vacation for myself to South Korea so I am a little bit calmer. But then again, failing is never a good feeling, there were times when I questioned myself if there is something wrong with me that I kept on failing. Was it my lack of experience? was it my master degree? Was it my personality? What is so wrong?

The good thing about this is knowing that as many times as I've fallen, I've successfully stood back and strive for another chance. This is tiring, and knowing that I'm not giving up on this (because of course, I can't, I won't, ever), I can give myself another pat on the back.

3. Officially became an illustrator.
When my cousin asked me if I want to illustrate for his book, I was estatic about the fact that I would finally be an illustrator who actually does illustrate books. The experience was insane, the recognition was something I would always remember to be thankful of. The feeling when I had the physical book in my hands, and to turn the pages and see my own illustration there is still so overwhelming. 

More importantly, the more chances I got to improve myself through another contract, when I was asked to illustrate another book, followed by other books. It felt so fulfilling, although I know I'm still far from what you can call a professional illustrator. But eh, I'm on my way there! So I will give myself a pat on the back and a cheer for being able to get closer to one of my biggest dreams.

4. Solo traveling to South Korea.

Korea oh Korea, there is something about this country that made me fall so hard for it. It wasn't even the famous k-pop stars because no, I'm not. I won't even recognize them if I ever see them on the street except if they're YG artists or really super mega famous (like, you know, Girls Generation-but I doubt they'd be walking on the same street I walk on, lol).

Maybe it's the cosmetics? Yes yes, and all the shopping-spree I can do there, but more than anything, I think it's the aura, and the people I met, and the adventures I had. I still want to come back there again. I think I should just make it to my yearly plan; visiting Korea every year. I would love to visit other countries too, I want to know if they also have the same strong force like Korea does.

To be able to survive in a foreign country alone, to have created precious memories, to have  made new friends, I will give myself a pat on the back, great job, Tiara!

5. Fallen in love, fallen out of love, fallen in love again, yeah.. that cycle.
That's just me being me. The ever so emotional me. I don't think I can survive without feeling either falling so very deeply in love or being hurt so bad I want to kill myself (eh, never to that extreme actually). So yeah, I wonder if this should make a cut here but well, it's kinda a highlight of my year too. Haha...

And with 2014 approaching in less than 24 hours, what would be on my wish list?

1. I want to fall in love, so very deep in love it will inspire my every moves. I want to find the one, he who will make me cry one time and laugh another time and both at the same time.

2. I want to find a job. Like please. I want to know where do I belong in this society. I want to prove to myself that I actually can do what others expect me to do. I want to find a way to be financially independent before 25, please.

3. I want to travel more, to South Korea again because it's on my yearly planner, Japan so I can buy the famous greentea flavored kitkat, Europe so I can walk down all the artistic aisle. Most importantly, I want to do it with my loved ones and it doesn't actually matter where, as long as I can get lost with him.

Traveling solo is fun, but please, I also want to have a romantic getaway with my boyfriend to a country far far away where nobody knows us so we can do whatever we want without having to think about what others would think of us.

4. I want to illustrate more. I would love more chance to paint, draw, and illustrate. But here, what I'm actually asking for is an inspiration and strong-will. Because my own laziness is something that kills me, giving me such a guilty pleasure that I will eventually regret. 

I want to be inspired, to see life in a new light, to discover new things that excites me, because lately I've been feeling that life is getting boring. This is clearly not a good thing. So I have decided to start from smal things like making illustration for my blog posts. I hope this will work on forcing myself to draw, just like what I do with this post, I hope I can continue with this little commitment.

5. I want to find myself. I am at this age where I feel lost almost everyday. I am maturing but I found myself retreat back to my comfort zone whenever things get ugly. I want to jump out of that, to take every challenge and dare myself. I want the chance to do that, either given or created by myself. I want to be braver, and forgive myself, and knowing myself more, and enjoy life.

So basically, all I want now is for 2014 to be an upgraded version of 2013. I want to achieve more, feel more, travel more, laugh more. Phew, I feel like this post is a pretty serious one, while I originally wanted to make a fun post with cute emoticons and all. Haha...


  1. Congrats on your masters degree. I can't wait till I'm there one day!!

    I invite you to come check out my blog.

  2. congratulations on your masters. To make the first four happen you need to work on no. 5 You have to get out of your comfort zone and you have to do. I think it is good to dare yourself. The only way out of your comfort zone is to get uncomfortable and I know this must sound crazy but I've actually dared myself to have a wedgie all day. check out my blog:

  3. happy new year, Tiara!! :) We're the same. I failed for so many times in the year of 2013 but I found that those failure actually worked on my favor (for the oddest reason but oh well). I'm hoping to visit Korea but that probably will be in 2015 but it'd be GREAT if I can go this year (2014). We'll go together ok?? :) Bigbang's suppose to have concert in 2014 right????

  4. I believe in you!! I know you'll be able to find something that fits you and your career, just don't give up and also network!!! Fight Fight! <3

  5. Great blog!)Would you like to follow each other? Just let me know in my blog. xoxo

  6. Wow, props to you for writing a blog for 5 straight years! Sometimes I just get so unmotivated to write posts, how do you keep up with both work and blogging at the same time!?
    Good luck in finding a good job and looking at your drawings, i already know that you'll be an amazing illustrator ^_^
    The last quote is very inspirational~ Thanks for sharing <3


  7. I couldn't believe it when the year ended. It was an amazing year for all of us. Congrats on keeping your blog for that long! I am about to have mine for 2 years but between the two domains I've had I'm about to have it for 5 as well! (:

  8. Where are you?!

    I have nominated you for the Liebster award! Here's the link to the questions and what you have to do to participate!

  9. Haven't been here in ages and I apologize! But a late "hurray" for your good news! March on! Fighting! I believe in you!

  10. Such an inspiring post, I hope you get to do everything you want to do :3 It'd be so amazing to go to South Korea! I read blogs from girls who live there and they're never short of exciting things to do!
    Lovely blog, just discovered it :)
    Kitsune x

  11. nobody success right away, i hope you will find your job very soon! i know that failing so many times and you just question yourself if there's something so wrong about you that makes you keep failing. I just graduated this year too! but i just graduated high school! i was scrolling through your blog and found these cute pics of yours i needed to read it, no wonder your pics are nice, you're an illustrator, i hope you become more successful in that field as well C:


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