I want!

Some days ago I realized how rare of me to post pictures of me and my friends in this blog anymore, and i's not even because I have no confidence (because I'm such a big narcissistic alright), but because I don't have any camera with me! :O Isn't that quite sad? LOL, okay.. maybe not because it never really matters to me anyway.

But today, when I was just randomly browsing through some websites (to escape the reality that I have to read at least 2 journals and hundred pages of theories this week) I found this little beauty, and I fell in love instantly, like.. straight away! Okay, I know I always have this kind of moment upon seeing retro things but.. this is just so adorable!

I've been wanting to have a DSLR camera (since forever) but at the back of my mind I always complain about how big and stuffy they are. While I am one who doesn't really bring bag of books to classes (seriously, my bag is filled only with 1.little make up pocket containing compact, lip balm and blush on, 2. Cellphone, 3. Wallet 4. That's all...) --oh, I left my books in my locker by the way (or just borrow from my friend..)

So Imagine me squeaking with excitement when I saw this "OLYMPUS E-P1 - White". Okay, it has everything I want with it... simplicity, beauty, and it's coming in a wide range of price. I'm a beginner so I'm sure I'll just buy the cheapest one, lol.

Such beauty.. I'm speechless... *droooooools...

So, I am now currently staring at this beauty on my screen hoping if I stare hard enough maybe it'll pop out of my screen. I love everything about it, I don't know much about Camera specification so I'll just ask my photographer friend later about it. However, I'm already so wanting this beauty so badly, not to mention how matching it is to my little scooter, here's a picture if you forget.

and I forgot to update you that I just bought a pretty little cellphone because my old one is acting up and I couldn't receive any text message. So I decided to buy just the cheap but adorable Samsung Champ, which is not even android yet but as cute as one. I think I am a new Samsung fan now :)

Okay, I think you've found out already what a big fan of white and beige I am...

now now, all you need to do is pray for me to succeed on persuading my dear daddy to buy me the camera, I'm sure I'll post like heaps of pictures when I own one, lol.

Or maybe just pray that someone from Olympus Company read this blog post and sponsor me, mwahahah...

Okay, that's a wishful thinking.

But nothing's impossible, right?

pretty windows

 I love huge windows that I can stare to on my boring day, a nice view would be a bonus.

Look at how huge the window is, I really love this room, I think I can just sit there all day, reading or just staring through the windows. I mean, with such pretty scenery out there, I wouldn't mind. And look at the lamps! :)

[photo via cococozy]

and it would be so nice to have a window with sea view!

[photo via weheartit]

or a small windows and a secret hideout to ponder and wonder and read and (maybe) falling asleep on.

[photo via weheartit]

Jogja International Street Performance 2011

No, I wasn't abducted by aliens :) and surprisingly, not being caught up by damn papers and homeworks too! I'm here alive, safe and sound, and happy.

I was given the chance to be a part of Jogja International Street Performance, which is somehing I'm really grateful for, it's like a holiday for me, away from all the paper and lesson. Ha! :P

This show is a cool one, I got to meet some local and international artist, and not only watch them but also befriend them. How fun!

The show was held for three days, the opening was held in one of the most crowded street in town. It makes me feel cool that they cleared the road for us! Meheheh...

the VIP seats

sterilized road

It feels somehow like mardi gras, I guess. All in all, it's a carnival where street performers and artist came in their colorful costumes, and I was there to make sure everyone and everything went right, thankfully it did! :D

pretty girls in their colorful costumes

a mix of punk and traditional dance, me likey!

street performers

snuff puppet in all their costume glory :D

ronnarong kampha from thailand

the first performer

The 2nd and 3rd show was held indoor in a concert hall, it was a free show so there was so many people coming (which is a good thing!)

I met so many new friends, experienced so many new things and learnt so many things I didn't know before. I am all about grateful :)

photo credits: Kurnia Rahmanto (Theomator)

in which I no longer believe in happy ending

What? What did you say, title? littletiara doesn't believe in happy ending anymore? Look, I know it's fairytale-ish, and childish, and all the way too girly and dreamy but those are what this littletiara is (was?) like!are you kidding me? What happened to her? Did she smack her head on the wall on her sleep? (yes, many times). Did someone brainwashed her? (no chance). Was she abducted by aliens and the one writing here now is her impersonator? (is that even possible?)

See, she had been through so many heartbreaks, failure in relationships, some failures even before the relationship itself, but do you believe all those stuff will broke her bad enough to stop believing in happy ending? Because all the while she was walking on sunshine, her world was all pink and pastel and baby blue, the land she was stepping in was soft and fluffy and there were like gazilion rainbows on her sky, why the sudden change?

Oh right, because now she got to think more, she sat and contemplated on what had happened to her in this lifetime, and she realized that her question was wrongly phrased.

It should be what had she done to herself in this lifetime, and then the realization hit her; there's no such thing like happy ending.

All those colorful books, with princes and princesses in it, or all those Disney movies with their cute and happy soundtrack (she still does love the songs! YES!), oh what lies they've sprinkled there! With every stories, every single stories, ended with "and they lived happily ever after. THE END" oh yeah right, happy ending crap.

She then realized that happy endings existed only for those in the books and films, not in real life. What would you say when someone ask you "when is your happy ending?" Would you tell them it's when your boyfriend proposed to you? Or when you finally married each other? Or when you have your first child? Or when your child first goes to school? When is it exactly?

See, there's no such thing like happy ending. Life goes on, doesn't end.

I no longer believe in happy ending, instead I change it to continuous happiness, or at least trying to. Since I'm a believer of black and white, I believe that happiness exist because we can feel the sadness, that there is light because of the darkness. 

Oh well, you know what? What I'm going to do now is to be happy along the journey, to be thankful of whatever happen and enjoy everything, every single thing.

"Happiness is a journey, not a destination; happiness is to be found along the way not at the end of the road, for then the journey is over and it's too late. The time for happiness is today not tomorrow."

wish list #5217265

As you all know already (or maybe not...) I'm all about boots and coats.. and laces! My oh my... and scary things happened when I saw these lovelies incidentally when I was browsing... Oh gracious goodness, please let not there be holes in my pocket, amen! lol

1. This pretty lacey boots... this got me stay up all night drooling thinking of how to make money so I can buy them. It's not even that pricey but still... I'm pretty much uncontrollable when it comes to shopping >_< I'm so bad bad.

2. This one's even scarier! They came to my dreams, haunted me, provoking me to click the "buy" button. I woke up sweaty and obsessed (of course, those were lies... lol, but really I want them SO badly it's unhealthy).

soooo pretty... so very pretty... *sigh* I want this! I want this! (okay, I may end up buying this one, really).

aren't they all pretty?