♕ Little Tiara

Jul 31, 2011

A long Ramble about Process (or something along that line)

One of my favorite things is watching some process happening, like how a catterpillar turns into butterflies, or make over; the stylist does some magic and ta-daah! Here come the cinderella! Or something "before-after"-related :D I love to compare how was it before and how it turned out after. So I love looking back through pages of an old album filled with baby me pictures and just adore myself :))

Anyway, this is going to be the first time I show you the progress of my drawing, starting from sketch to the next step until it finished. Everytime I finished a picture, I can't help to just loving my new baby. It happens every time, every single time. Narcisist much? lol.

If you're my facebook friend then most probably you've seen it before, heheh...

ver. 01 (Sketch)

I've been quite intrigued with fate-themed talk lately. All those soulmates and red-string stuff? Yes, that's what I've been thinking about. So once upon a leisure time, I found my pencil and paper and start to draw. One thing about me and my drawing, once I start to draw, I have to finish it right after. Else it won't ever be finished.

So here it is, a picture quite clear about two fated people.

ver. 02 (vector)

I bet you'll all agree that vector isn't really my thing. It's quite plain and although I've tried to put on more details, still I feel it's missing something. Maybe because it's too digital and not so "handmade". Oh well, you know what I'm talking about, right?

Even so, every time I see a nice-looking vector image I always want to learn how to make one. Haha... Hail to my curiosity!

ver. 03 (finished)

When I started drawing, I already have images in my head of how I want it to be like. I want the guy to walk on a snowy night, I want the girl to sleep soundly in a dim room. However, some things don't turn out as I planned, which is the fun part. You can never guess how it'll turn out.

I'm in love with this picture, like I always do to my other pictures. That's why my twitter bio says "a hopeless romantic who draws magic" about me. Because every time I finished a picture I felt like I've done some magical process ;D (and I thought about changing/erasing the "hopeless" part since it doesn't sound nice to me :P)

Well, I hope you like this artwork as much as I do (it even makes it to be my cellphone wallpaper hahaha...).

Jul 25, 2011

to wear the heart upon one's sleeve

How long has it been since the last time I posted here? Three weeks? a month? Time surely flies too fast to my liking. Anyway, how long exactly has it been since the last time I talked about boys? Any boys in my life? I can’t quite remember. Who was the last guy being talked about here? Was it le ex? That would be almost a year ago, seriously?

Okay, so I’m coming back, hopefully for good, and the opening story would be about a boy. Unfortunately, the story isn’t really a pretty one. Well, rest assured, it’s not about a heartbreak (yet) because basically there’s no heart that’s breaking (yet, and hopefully there won’t be any). But you see… me and this new guy, we didn’t start off really good.

you can’t stick your toes in the water,

you gotta jump and finally go underwater

Let’s just say that this guy is a friend, whom I wasn’t really close to but got closer as the time being.

It had been long long time since I really got smitten by a guy. I mean, how long has it been since the last time I told you about falling in love? I can’t answer it, I had long forgotten how it felt like.

So, when there was a single little butterfly doing some somersaults movement in my tummy the moment he asked me out, I was in every kind of shock. I was afraid, but I was happy, I was so excited to the point of being terrified.

Which was not really a good thing.

When I am afraid (or nervous) I tend to do lots of silly things, like thinking that a booze would help me calm down a little bit, which was wrong. So, on our very first date (if you want to call it one) I was half drunk half nervous, not a nice combo. Really.

I spilled my orange juice all over our table. Twice. (see how nervous I was? I'm not even sure what I was so nervous about)
I talked half-consciously (blame the beer)
I made so many silly expressions; like a cutesy one-you know, puppy eyes all night long (ew..).
and I’m pretty much sure I said and did even more nonsensical things I don’t even want to remember.

Now, that was one of the worst starts I’ve ever made.

But, since I am kinda sure that I like this guy, I decided to follow what my heart says (not like I have any other choice) and wear it upon my sleeve. It doesn’t take a genius to guess about me liking him, and I’m sure he’s not stupid either. So yeah, I like him. Not in love (yet) but I really really like him.

When I think of why I do like him, what I like about him, I cannot quite pinpoint.

If I really have to write something about it, then it would be how he made me an honest girl, a damn honest one. I usually am one who hides disappointment to avoid further problems, it doesn’t occur to me when it’s him-related; when I am disappointed of what he does to me, I’ll say it out loud, when he makes me happy, I’ll make sure he knows, and the fact that I like him, like I’ve said before; is quite obvious for the whole world to know.

and about this fact alone, I am kinda proud of myself and thankful to him.

Does he like me back? I don’t know, most probably he doesn't (since I've done so many icky things a girl could ever do a lifetime only in a night). Am I sad about it? Yes, It's only normal that I do. Can I control this feeling? No, neither I can nor do I want to. Anyway, I couldn't care less about that right now, I am enjoying this “falling in like” time (right, not falling in love because it isn't).

While I know how annoying it is being pestered by someone I don’t really like, I just can’t stop being selfish and continue liking him shamelessly. I might, most probably, ended up in a heartbreak, (which I hope won’t ever happen however miraculously) then again, I will take care of that later when it happens.

Now, I need you to wish the best for me so I won't have to suffer from any heartbreak all over again. No matter how prepared I am, a heartbreak is still a heartbreak and whatever breaks, hurts. Especially when it's a heart.

don’t be careful with me I’m not so delicate I gave you my heart, I know the chance I’m taking

(Meg & Dia – don’t be careful with me)

pictures from weheartit

Jun 25, 2011

I sleep better when it rains

I love rainy days, the pitter-patter sound of each drop hitting the roof and then falls to the ground relaxes me.

I love the magical warmth when it rains, snuggling under the blanket or a cup of hot chocolate

I love rain, and rainbow

I made this picture on a rainy day, under my blanket.

Outside my window, the colorful raindrops sang me a lullaby. And before I knew it, I landed my feet upon the soft and fluffy colorful cloud, oh, of course that was a dream, a very nice dream indeed.

When I woke up, there was a magic line in the sky.

the first three pictures are from weheartit

4th picture was my recent artwok

the 5th picture were taken by my friend when we went to the beach few times ago.

Jun 17, 2011

a letter to my future self.

Hello myself!

So you're littletiara, the same littletiara as me, only five years older. I hope that five years do make lots of differences, but not that much. Wait, are you still a littletiara or a slightly bigger tiara now? Either way, I hope you're looking as cute as I am, but cooler.

How's life? Has it been treating you well? Okay, let's just cut some slacks and come to the point.

Have you found yourself a nice boyfriend? or hubby already? (This part really should come last but you know me, this is the part I am most eager to know, really...) How is he? Is he kind and cool and all you can expect from a guy? Is he dependable? Are you two completing each other well? Most important, are you two happy? You make him happy, right?

So, who is he? Is he someone I know? Come on, at least give me some hint, I'm so curious!

How's business? You've made a bigger social circle than I do, right? I believe you've met so many inspirational people, learn from them and be one of them! Pick you lazy butt up and do something girl! Oh please, don't go online as much as I do! Okay, you can, only when you can earn more money than I do by doing so, agreed?

Still drawing, aren't you? You should, you must! It's what our passion is, so keep doing it! And writing! Yes, writing like what I am doing right now. You know how helpful it is to relieve some stress, no? Yes, right. Keep doing it too.

Look, self. If life sucks, if the boyfriend/hubby (just... how am I supposed to know? There's the possibility, right?) is annoying, if your one of your friends makes you feel like punching him/her on the face, remember that we both have gone through it all before, and we did quite good. If I can do it, you can do it too, right? Because you're way cooler than I am.

I am saying this now so you can remember what you need to remember. I'm sure you already know all these, but most of the time, we tend to forget. I know how forgetful you are.

Never forget to be thankful and cherish everything given to you. Learn from your mistakes (and mine too), take every lesson and live life to the fullest.

No matter what hardship you're going through, believe me you can past through it. Because littletiara, you're one very cool lady, a stronger woman ;)

xoxo ♥

May 29, 2011

coat! coat! coat!

Help me! I'm insane! Oh my... I've been lusting over heaps and heaps and heaps of coat pics for the past week. I just love them! As much as I love babydolls and flowery dresses *sigh*

(via http://www.hypedemocracy.com)

I love how simple this coat is, and the beige color! *melts* and it doesn't help that the model is a little bit too cute for her own good. One thing I'm unsure about is how tall the model is, I mean... it wouldn't look that good if I'd be drown in it, right? LOL.

via http://www.hypedemocracy.com

or something a little bit more shape-y. I love that details, but it looks a little bit too warm for me who lives in this tropical country. Would match the cold nights, though :)