it's one of those times

So you who have been following me and reading this blog shall know that I am pretty much a positive person, sometimes too positive that I look up so high that I find light when nobody else does. It's not a bad thing, I tell you. Well sometimes I feel sad too, and troubled, and... negative, like I'm losing faith in myself, like somehow I doubt myself.

Well, like the title said, it's one of those times.

I somehow feel like I'm losing the real purpose of me blogging, I mean, seriously? I miss the times when I write just for the hell of it, why is it now feels different?

There were times when I just wanted to write and not minding the comments, I just needed to pour my thoughts and feelings and writing made me feel good.

There were times when I wrote things because I wanted to share my world and stories to whoever mind to read my little bloglet, but honestly right now I don't know why I blog anymore.

I don't want to quit blogging, I'm just having this identity kind of crisis, I guess?

Also, since I'm already ranting, I just want to pout all the way and share how troubled I feel lately about my going to Korea this summer. I'm excited about it, and also scared, I feel bad spending so much money (my parents') just so I can go there and get what I want. Is it okay? ;____;

I feel like sulking in the corner and cry.

ps. I think my time of the month is nearing, I'm usually more emotional during these times, heh.