Hel- wait, what? it's 2012!

not only it's already 2012, tomorrow is Lunar (Chinese) New Year already!

Xin Nian Kuai Le, Gong Xi Fat Chai!

I always believe that in my previous life, I was a chinese, or something that related to China. Who knows, maybe I was a princess from China, or Mulan? Lololol... anyway, I have this special love and adoration towards China, the country, its people and most especially their culture :)

*gasp* and how late can I be to realize that it's already another year? And that it's already the third year I'm writing in this blog? Which means, around three years to know you guys, too! (well, some of you, hehe). Time never fail to amaze me, ever.

and suddenly, I'm a 22 year old woman, almost 23, which means, almost 25, which means one fourth a century! Now, when I see someone popular, artist, entertainer of some sorts around my age, I was often amazed, "Wow! (s)he is around my age and is already so successful!" in my mind, I was young, and it's amazing how someone the same age as me has already reach so much, that is until I realized that it wasn't them who are young, it's me who's not so young anymore! *gasp*

I've been fooled by myself; with the status as a student (a post-graduate student, but a student nonetheless), homeworks and exams, all the studying makes me feel like I'm not different with any other students; high school students and college students, while actually I'm different. And the fact that people constantly telling me that  I look so young, that I still fit being a high school student. All these fooled me, made me feel like I'm still young.

Of course I know I'm still young and the road ahead is still long, but looking back, I questioned myself, "what have I done all these times?" I've lived in this world for 22 years, what have I done? I want to do more, I need to do more, I have to do more!

Well, this is me being all philosophic, which is good once in a while. It's time like this that reminds me that I have to make my life worthwhile, to make people remember me when I'm gone one day, well I feel like a woman on a mission, so 2012 better be prepared for me.

In another note, I really really really want to go South Korea for my birthday *wails* reason is, there's this Big Show, a Big Bang concert. Which, if you don't know already, Big Bang is like... the only Korean boyband I love! Let's see... I know it's korean wave hitting every corner of the world right now, but for me, Big Bang (and 2ne1 -girl band from the same agency) is a whole different concept from what people call K-pop. And no, I'm not their new fan, I've been liking them since... ergh, can't remember... around 2006? When most people are not even familiar with Korean entertainment. See, I know what's good, k?

Okay, I shall ramble no more, point is, Big Bang is great and I want to go to their concert, other than that, I've always wanted to go to South Korea, their concert just triggered the greediness in me more. 

Another point is that my wallet is like empty, dusty with spiderwebs inside. If my wallet is a drama, it's a weepy, tear-jerker kind of drama, it's sad and tragic! *wails for my empty wallet* how the hell am I going to fill it with $500 by the end of this month? By the way, this month is ending already...

But then again, staying positive is my specialty, and I'm kinda persistent (almost to the point that it's annoying), so until it's 6th of march, I still believe I will be there. I mean, look! All these hotties are waiting for me to watch them! How can I just neglect them? No can do, right? right? right?

On (yet) another note, I must be the latest to know about this... but Blogger finally answered my our prayer and put a reply button under every comments! ALL HAIL BLOGGER!!! Hahaha... I love it when they hear our rants :))

now, let me end this post with this superb MV from Big Bang which was taken in one shot, which is awfully cool!

all pictures found via tumblr

So I forgot to put a Title...

thanks to Rad's constant nagging, here I am finally updating this blog. Man! Is this blog look dustier than usual? Oh crap! Is that spiderweb I'm seeing? :O hahaha... okay, first of all... Merry Christmas! Although I don't really celebrate it, well... I'm enjoying the holiday too! Hahahah ;p so Happy Holiday! How did you spend your holiday? me? Oh, of course, lazing around in bed, it was raining all day on christmas so it was perfect for sleeping! YAY!

Anyway, I got sick too :( I can't remember when was the last time I fell that sick. Yeah, with fever and all, but I'm getting better now, of course since I'm a strong lady, hah! (say the girl who spent two days straight under the blanket) it must be the weather, or something. I'm not even sure why was I sick, sigh~

I still have to draw three more pictures. Yes, in my list I still have three to draw and I'm like... starting to go sleep imagining how the picture should be! Hah! These ones should be good. It's been too long since the last time I really draw something, I'm kinda nervous.

So, new year is nearing. Much as I can't believe it, oh well... I just have to face it, right? Here's the thought that keep coming to me: I'm not getting any younger!!! >O< oh my! I feel like I'm getting fifty soon!

I still remember clearly spending the new year last year in the club (clubs, actually), wasted (kinda) with my friends, and oh my! There were some drama too! I mean, my friends met her ex there, and some guys trying to hook me up (damn! this one is annoying part), some other guys trying to catch my friend (all I can remember, his name was radio, hahahahaha... he dressed up like Elvis, I swear he did!), and the worst part, we forgot to take any picture, oh well...

perverts and exes aside, it was a fun night. Ahhh... I missed my friends :( they're all over the place now since we're all graduated. And up till now I still don't know how I will spend this year's new year, hmm... for me it's either a super-crowded place, or nothing at all, as in quiet place... like... as quiet as my room.

Hahah, I gotta say, me and my room has this special bonding now that I barely sleep anymore. You see, classes and all... sleeping is now such a big thing for me. It's an honor to get to sleep, really! :)) and it's getting really crowded outside, making me even lazier to fight the heat only to spend some money ~_~ I don't even have that much in my pocket anyway. Maybe I should really start the drawing, hahah...

by the way, I found this on tumblr, so I think I should share it here, what is yours? I'm a Moe; nauseatingly cute, trololololol...

life update!

I'm here! I'm here! Okay, I know I've disappeared longer than I used to be (r not?) but... but... okay, no but, I was just lazy and have nothing to talk about, well... actually there are lots f things to talk about so the reason is I was lazy, and lazy is human, and I am human so yeah..

what do you want me to talk about?

A theory of how I think school is trying to kill me? Ah yeah right! I just survived three consecutive days of presentations which means three days lack of sleep, which means three days of panda eyes, which means three days of emo littletiara, which means... well... good thing I aced them all! Oh joy!

and next week would be the time for final exam and I have no idea if I can survive it again, I'm crossing my fingers I do... but seriously, laziness has taken over me. Not the kind of lazy that I don't want to do anything and I ended up doing nothing. I'm in a state of laziness where all I want to do is reading good stories and snuggles on my bed, and not doing anything related to homework. Yes, that kind of laziness, not so lazy, right?

I think I've bored you out.

So, here's some little update.

• I'm alive, and well. Yeah, pretty much well although I could do more eating now, I'm hungry
• I have homeworks, two to be finished today, like right now, but I'm still too lazy to do them.
• Belkastrellka, an indie band, hired me to draw for their upcoming single. And I am uber excited about this! So excited that I don't want to do anything! Ha!
• What else is here.. hmm... nothing else, ah! I'm in dire need to find somebody to love. Okay, that was cheesy but I think life's just plain boring now that I have no object for my affection, sigh...

Okay, that should be all. I hope you won't kill me, haha!

a little sneak peek

well I hope you like what you're seeing here :) because I surely am!

Have I told you that I am excited about this? :D I do! I do!

Ps. Just in case this is too vague, it's a pendant with my artwork on it :) yes, they'll soon be available in jewelries, yayness! :))

Have a dream, make it real

Once upon a time, one of my dreams faltered, remember about the little resto I and my cousin opened for only about two weeks or so? Ah.. such bittersweet memory... But this littletiara is no quitter so no worries, I still have dreams, big dreams which include little cafery in it.

Why little cafery? Why not make it grand?

Because I am in love with little stuff (that 'little' in littletiara explains more than enough, I guess). I want to have my little cafery all over the world. So you know, it's like little invasion, you won't realize it but when you do it's already too late because you're already addicted to this little stuffs around you, and craving for more.

(amen!)

Anyway, I remember I've talked about this, though I am too lazy to look for the exact post. Maybe I should, later. I love doing this, planning and daydreaming; here are more details of what to guess about the little cafery...

I want everything in mini size! Seriously if I could hire oompa-loompas, I would! lol... I want to have it Alice in Wonderland themed. I want before people step in, they drink a welcome drink in a little bottle with a "drink me" tag.

I want people who enters feel bizarrely comfortable inside. I want once they're in they realize that something is wrong but not knowing what until they figured that everything is in smaller size :D yes, the chairs and tables, I want to make it as weird as possible, shall I use those chairs for kindergarten and make them more vintage-ish and charming? And wooden, I want them to be white wooden chairs.. maybe something like this but in a smaller size..

(nanny's pavilion)

YES! The chairs!

And the walls... the walls should be made of wood, recycled wood would be best. I love wood because it gives me such warm feeling, maybe it's just me, no?

(Slowpoke Espresso Cafe in Fitzroy, Australia)

and there would be sweets, your favorite sweets in so many flavors. Because I am one who gets bored easily even when eating, I tend to eat little but often. I assume most girls do (or is it just me? o.O) so instead of a plate of strawberry pancake, I'd serve five (or so) little plates of little pancakes in different taste.

and yes of course the pancakes must be mini sized, as does the other like...

mini cupcakes

macarons

right, of course mini macarons

mini waffles!

mini cakes :D

mini pancake yay!

Being the little narcissist me, of course my artwork should be everywhere on the wall, hahahaha...

Oh how fun to have it all! :D Well the plan is not yet finished and the concept is still raw, I still have times to think more about it, though. While of course saving and learning more about business.

Oh please do cross your fingers for me to have this dream come true :D